I haven't created a lot of art recently, but that's ok. One of the ways I'm trying to find balance is in the only New Years resolution I wanted to make this year: to have fun with my art and not guilt. No thoughts of "I'm not doing enough" or "I suck" or "why am I reading a book instead of drawing?", because when you peel away the layers of emotion and guilt, there probably IS logical reason behind all those things.
"I'm not doing enough"
Compared to what? Compared to someone who works twice as fast?Correct. twice as slow? Incorrect--unless of course, they have over twice as much time to work as I do. Compared to a full-time freelance illustrator? Correct. It's all relative. I created more art last year than I ever have in one year, but since I illustrate AFTER putting in 40+ hours a week on another job, I don't create as much as other people may. I have plans to do more with my art this year than I did last year. Progress is progress.
I can't say this because I don't feel this way anymore. individual drawings may suck, I may be grumpy about something else that I'm taking out on my artwork, I may be envious of someone else's talent, but my artwork is good. I still have much to learn, but the moment I stop trying to learn, I should stop making art anyway.
"Why am I reading a book instead of working on art?"
Two answers for this. One, a favorite author just released a new novel. Two, I'm stressed. I know for a fact that I've been using books of the SF/F genre as a coping mechanism for most of my life. The characters have problems, but they are not MY problems, and many have cool magical powers to help them deal with their issues. So jealous. If I am doing nothing but rereading a 14 book series at the height of my work's busy season AND the end-of-year holidays WHILE trying to help inlaws, I probably need the downtime. The art will still be there; I love it too much to lose it completely.
No more guilt.